My Depression is Insufferable

Taylor Ellison
4 min readMay 23, 2022

“Depression is so Good for Writers.” — An Unhelpful Friend.

“Depression gives me so much to write about.” — Most writers.

“Shouldn’t you have more to write about since you’re so depressed?” — My friends.

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My good friend, well-intended, said “most people have so much to write about when they’re depressed.”

At the time of this piece, it’s 0614 (Arizona time) and I have been sitting in this office chair for the last 12 hours. The only reason I am sitting in a chair is because I slept for 24 hours and forced myself to get out of bed to avoid sleeping the next day.

Depression, for me, isn’t a time when I feel inspired to write, at least not with any sense of poetic flow. I’d be shocked if a reader felt intrigued by the headline, but then clicked to read and then could not finish the article.

No offense taken.

Writing, even about ideas that are inspiring or interested to me, feels impossible. Putting two cohesive words together, hoping another person is able to comprehend my intention, is wishful thinking.

So, why am I writing? If it’s so painful, why am I writing?

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Taylor Ellison

Happily divorced, single mom, reviewing books and managing a Bookstagram account as if people actually care about what I have to say. Posting weekly.